2010.....looking back

Looking back at this year 2010....

Well, it's been pretty crappy at times....and pretty great too.

I went through some pretty tough times physically; surgery, unbelievable weight loss, pain, but I survived and am recovering.

I went through some pretty lonely times too; hospitals alone, dealing with life and death, the fragility of life, but I hug my daughter and thank life even more for every second I have.

I went through some heartbreak too; walking away, being left behind, losing a good friend, but other doors opened, old doors opened again and I try to walk ahead with determination and faith.

I went through some pretty dry times; money wasn't always in abundance, work was sometimes very slow, and I had to deal with the despair, frustration and challenges of being an entrepreneur, but I also got some great contracts, had some of the best times working, and I am even more motivated for the year to come.

All in all, 2010 was a tough year for me. I mean, really tough. But, I also learned, once again, that we do have a wealth of strength and love inside of ourselves, and when we need it, there are people who come to give us the support, guidance and tenderness just when we think we can't go on anymore.

I think that's the one thing I learned; to let go: if you have no choice but to shut your eyes, let them pump you full of anasthetic and open you up, well, you just have to smile and think to yourself that you'll wake up.

Somewhere.

What's in store for 2011? I ain't a psychic, so I can't tell you, but I'm sure that it will be full of surprises, joy and happiness, love and suffering, pain and giddyness, laughter and tears, anger and forgiveness, birth and death, life and more life.

Basically, life as it's always been, life as it always will be.

I wish you all a most wonderful year to come, I wish us all to learn at least one great lesson in life that will transform us forever, I wish us all those moments when time stands still and we are in the cocoon of light and love; those moments when we realize that it was all worth it, that none of it ever mattered, that after, when all is done, we will laugh and sing and fly on the Wings of Freedom.